Enlightened AF.

I'll start from the start and the truth is that I was exhausted. Working as crew, lugging around heavy equipment and waiting around in the sweltering Northern Territory sun for the passed few of days for my fellow students had taken it's toll on me mentally and physically. Given that I had also been up for the majority of the previous night writing, I awoke the next morning burnt and moderately disgruntled. But I staggered my way through the hot, heavy weather to meet with my crew.

Today I was a director and the filming of my assessment piece was upon us and although I had a bit of a chip on my shoulder about the fact that I had been given about a quarter of the time to shoot my assessment piece (like, what the fuck?) I was excited and rose to the occasion.

As I began to check the equipment, it was hard to ignore the fact that one of my actors/crew members had failed to show. Ten minutes turned into twenty minutes and twenty minutes turned into half an hour. My patience had dissolved and our schedule was tighter than a nun. To say I was pissed off was an understatement. I raced to his dorm room and he agreed to meet me at the lecture room in ten minutes.

He failed to show.

At this point I feel it's important to note that I am really not always this ill tempered. Sometimes my fuse is short and my temperament is wild. Majority of the time, everything feels like a sort of game and life is somewhat fun and overflowing with whimsy.

Actually it's always at either of the two extremes. Rarely in between. But that's for another blog post. Love it or leave it, San Diego (Sometimes I like to pretend that I'm Ron Burgundy.)

Anywho, surprise, surprise, my piece o' shit friend never showed and I retreated to the bathroom to chill the fuck out. I splashed my face a couple of times in the mirror and gave myself a pep talk so miserable and self pitying that I'll need at least 17 sessions in therapy to forget how petty it was. Then, it came to me. A quote that I'd come across multiple times in my life on facebook or whathaveyou but had never utilised out in the wild...Something had clicked.

I think maybe Bruce Lee said it. But who could be sure?

'Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked while the bamboo or willow survives by bending in the wind.'



The odds were against me and I think by this point I had well and truly lowkey lost my patience. I was trying not to openly blame people for what was happening. After all, I am still a firm believer in taking responsibility for everything that happens in life. Simply because when you blame people you're literally giving them power over your life. Ain't nobody got time fo' dat [sorry...(Notsorry)] To calm down and adjust to the circumstance seemed like the best option. I gave thanks for the people that had showed to help me and decided to film a badass royalty free KPOP video instead. My love for KPOP and Korean culture in general is undying.

It got experimental to say the least.

Point is, I remembered a quote. It came in useful. I could choose to blame other people and stay pissy and ditch my project altogether. Instead I decided it would be more useful to calm down and make the most out of the situation.

Lesson learnt... bend with the wind bitches,

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